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Today was perrrrfeccccctt. I was woken up by the sound of birds at 4:30 this morning. I fell back asleep, but after about 30 minutes I woke up to the refreshing sound of rain and the feeling of the fresh breeze blowing through my little apartment. That's the perfect way to start a day. I long to find a place in the world where it's not typically humid, usually sunny, and rains a lot. :) That's the dream! Anyway, I met up with an old friend (since Kindergarten, I might add) for breakfast at a little diner in the town I grew up in. It's the coolest place, I've always loved that classic stuff. The two of us are known (not really) for taking walks together so we went to a park nearby and walked around... A bit later we took the drive up to the best hill around here, and WOW was it gorgeous! Sunny, breezy, warm, with glider planes taking off overhead... PERFECTION. THEN, my day resumed with a baby shower for one of my "ex-coworkers". She is so beautiful; I am so glad to have gotten to know her a bit better in the past year. Super excited for her! Her family is the sweetest and so fun; it was a great time. I got home (I feel like I'm starving btw- I think I may be out of food...) and watched Moana... and cried obvi. It's just so inspiring haha, and the music is influential! Love it. I've now continued on to watching The Secret Life of Pets. ADORE this movie. Wow. It's just so well put together and FUNNY! Moving on to my night.... I plan to make some food out whatever's least frost bit in the freezer, and, oh... did I forget to switch that laundry? Sigh. I can't wait until my roommate comes back from vacation. Upstate NY- June 2017Follow me @lifeasemilyhope to keep up with me!!
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I sit here in my apartment today, alone. This isn't a rare occurrence but my roommate is on vacation. It's different sitting here knowing that she's not gonna be coming in and out for the next few days! It's so quiet here... Quiet days like this can be really good, but also really torturous. You can learn a lot from them, or they can destroy you. My day has started out with the negative, but I'm slowly bringing in the positive with my thoughts. I kind of hate being alone, but I don't like having to go and be intentionally WITH people either. It's a balance I suppose. I need to make a change. This month was supposed to be all about getting healthy, launching my career, and feeling BETTER about everything. So far, I still feel sick and unproductive. It's a destructive path. I AM learning a lot though, remember! So it's all worth it. I just can't let it end there. Here's some of the stuff I've been worried about: MONEY: Obviously, with no job at the moment, I don't really have any $$ coming in. I have enough to pay all of next months bills, but then that's it. Zilch. Nada. I have been praying about this, because I know that I could get a part time job SO easily, but do I really want that for my life? I have been trapped in jobs like that since I was 16. It's time to move on. But how does anyone make a living? I've been told I need to marry rich. I agree, but I don't even know if I wanna get married to begin with! :P It's hard to be me. I have a lot of dreams but never feel healthy and don't want to just be like everyone else. So I've been praying that God will LEAD me to something, and I'm not going to lock myself into anything until He does. In other words, I'm pretty sure that I refuse to work for someone else. I want to be an independent contractor, if you will, and clean house and offices and such as that. I have done jobs like that in the past with my parents, why not make a career out of it? I'm very good at cleaning/organizing because I love places to be in order and I have a lot of experience in fixing things. :P So over the next few months while I'm still in NY, that's what I'm gonna need to do. What are YOU gonna do to live life differently? Comment below. It's the first day of SUMMER! Here's to vacations, thunderstorms, hikes, campfires, cookouts, swimming, and being with friends and family. It's the greatest time of year, although some would argue this! ;)
I have so much to look forward to this summer- trips, friends returning home, new job of some sort.... this year will be impactful. Today I live in fear of the future- I am running out of money and scared to put myself out there to actually make money. I love being home and my whole goal was to work from my apartment to begin with! I'm trying to figure this all out. This is my last week of "freedom" before "real life" starts again. But I'm thinking about doing life differently... long term. I am likely moving to a new state in the fall, and I don't want to just get a normal job here in NY in the meantime. So, I have to find my own way. But that's the best way to do things, right? Society and what's considered to be "normal" are not always right. You don't have to live by the book. Live by one book- the Bible. If you're referencing that and getting together with the author regularly, then everything else is fair game. Try things. Take risks. Start a crazy business. Buy something and rent it out. Go on road trips. Vlog it! Trade some hard work for food and a room. DO STUFF THIS SUMMER. Life is not meant to be boring; LIVE INTENTIONALLY and NEVER be stuck in something that you're not passionate about. What's one of your big dreams that has always seemed irrational to you? What are you gonna do about it? Tweet me @lifeasemilyhope #LiveIntentionally There are so many things that I'm learning in this time I decided to take off.
For those of you who don't know, 21 days ago I left my job of over 2 years to take a month off of life. Almost every regular commitment I have in the usual week I put on hold. Most people probably think this whole idea is pretty stupid, but I've actually gotten a lot more support from the adults than I thought I was going to. They can appreciate that I'm just trying to figure things out, and I can absolutely do that in my own way. This whole month has actually been pretty rough, but even before I started I knew that. I told myself that I was going to finally get things done that I've been putting off- create, write, spend time with God, sing, attempt to write songs once again.... read, start and online store, and more like that. I knew that my past tendencies of laziness and fear were going to try and stop me from doing these things, but I wasn't going to let them. Honestly, it's a lot harder than it even sounds. Here I am on day 20, and I still have barely done any of those things. Knowing all of this, I understood that no matter what way this month was to go, I would learn a lot, and I would always look back on this time and be SO glad that I did this. I don't think that is false, because I am learning. I am learning what works in my schedule and what doesn't- I'm learning what's important. Waking up and doing the dishes right away is how I like to start my days now. That is, if I don't shower the night before. If I do shower, I wake up and start some laundry, or fold some from the days before. It's all about finding what works for you, and what's most important to you. Yeah, I waste a whole lot of time. Most of it is because of fear, and honestly just not knowing what to do. It's like I don't want to start something because I'm so unsure about if it's worth investing my time into. But it's better to invest your time in SOMETHING than to not invest it into anything at all. Young adults: those of you who are not locked into a "big" job where you will seriously pay for doing this.... Take some time off. Figure out what you want to do and what you love to do. Passion is way more important than the payout. I know it sounds crazy; but I'm doing it. Do this with me! Follow the journey on Twitter starting today @lifeasemilyhope #aShiftDay20 |
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