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Guys, I'm really nothing special. It's kind of strange being me, because growing up I always felt like I was destined to be someone great. I knew in my soul that I would be an influencer, and inspire people to love God and be light. Life is so, so temporary but often we get caught up in it. Time is perceived so much differently by us, versus how God views time.
He created each of us to live out a specific purpose in our time on earth. I wonder how many people have actually lived up to their purpose? I know that I don't want to waste my life away, and regret it all later. I already regret wasting so much time in my life and I'm fighting to LIVE. But it is so, so hard. I don't exactly know what the issue is- all I know is that I can't do this in my strength. I need someone who believes in me enough to be willing to push me, and not give up on me or just fade away from my life. But I HAVE the influence and relationship. Without it, without working on it, I have no power. That's kind of where I'm at right now. God is the only motivator I need. BUT, He did create people to be in community with each other- for a very specific reason. We need people in our lives to build us up, and they need us to be there to listen and support them as well. PRAY for these people in your life. Pray that you'll find this small group of people who are solid friends- friendship is so passive these days, and I hate that. I wish things could go back to their original design- but they never will, so I don't know exactly how to create that world again for myself. Because it's not solely up to me. But I need to pray unceasingly for motivation and creativity, or I'm never going to get ANYWHERE. It's slowly killing me. I'm just beginning to have some leads about how to improve my health. Hopefully, I'll be able to improve my mental health as well- creativity has been so limited in me since my concussion last year. Everything changed for me that day. But I needed a different kind of change. Life is all about honoring and serving God, and listening to Him when He tells you to do something. Listen to that voice! Be an influencer. We got this. Tweet me @lifeasemilyhope with responses to this post.
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