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Well! It's only 2PM but I feel like it's been kind of a productive day. What I mean by kind of, is that I really haven't gotten a whole lot done, but the past 24 hours or so I have been noticing my perspective changing.
This started out on YouTube- I clicked on the app for no particular reason, just to find something more wholesome than Netflix to watch for a bit. The first video I saw was of Sadie Robertson speaking at an event- her words are always encouraging and motivating. From that video, I clicked on a video from another speaker, and another.... and watched almost an entire sermon series from a church in South Carolina. I am learning so much about myself this week, and about what I deserve and want and am QUALIFIED for. God has QUALIFIED us to do something. He put that purpose in you before the beginning, and He gave you the ability to fulfill that purpose. We just have to walk a while with Him to see what it is! I am always trying to figure out where I'm supposed to be, or what I'm supposed to be doing. But what if, I am where I am for a reason? What if I am where I am to lean what I'm learning about my purpose RIGHT NOW? I've been thinking lately that I need to start waking up earlier. Getting up at the same time every day, before everyone in the house is starting their day, is motivating and refreshing. I haven't started this thing yet, but it's coming. It is very difficult for me to balance the periods of time in my life where I work with the ones where I don't. For me it seems like it needs to be one or the other- but life was meant to be balanced. I need to figure out what that is. What I DO know is that I want my work to BE fun- so that's what I'm working on right now. Today I got up around 8, that's not early, but I was intentional about setting an alarm. I got up and just had a slightly different perspective about the day- perhaps it was the cooler weather of the morning, but I'd also like to think it was because of all the truth and life that was spoken into my yesterday though all those sermons and messages. I WANT MORE OF JESUS. That's gonna look weird for me- because 1) I try to hide 2) I'm not the nicest person sometimes (especially with my family) I don't WANT to love people. I want to hide. I want people to leave me alone. But God created us as RELATIONAL people. We were not meant to be alone. That goes back to Adam and Eve, when God created Adam and said- wait- this is not good. Man shouldn't be alone. WE NEED PEOPLE. I am learning so much and just starting out- I hope this is a productive journey. Because if anything I stick to in my entire life, this would be the most important. Love God, love yourself, then love others. How can you love others if you don't love yourself? How can you love yourself if you don't know your identity, who God MADE YOU TO BE?
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Alright. So I'm getting to the point where, if I don't make this thing (my website, YT channel, etc.) happen, it's never going to. To be honest, I just don't know how to get people to listen. In order for this to work for a career, which is what I want ultimately, you need to get people to listen to you. How do you do that? My theory is that to get people to listen, you have to either A. Give them something they want B. Be an example of something they want/need and be someone they look up to IDK HOW TO DO THAT! I'm gonna be real with you guys, I am so, so far from perfect. I am far from motivated. I am far from certain about how I want my life to look. Even more, with what I DO know about how I want my life to look, I don't know how to get there. I don't know if God is going to change things up on me. I don't know if I would be more satisfied in something else, giving my dreams up to God. These are things that I am starting to work on a little bit. Because, like I said before, it's now or never. Please join me on this journey- I hope that, together, we can learn to be motivated and just DO stuff. Not be so afraid or uncertain or not feel smart enough, experienced enough, or successful enough. Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Him who strengthens me." |
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