Honestly, I'm Just Frustrated...

So they say that life never goes quite how you expect it to.

I can say that I completely agree with that statement. Now, I'm not going to get into all the things that happened a few years ago that REALLY prove that to be true, but I AM going to share how I'm feeling about life right now. 

It's frustrating! Here's the main thing I've been struggling with in my mind- public lifestyle.
Since I was a tween, and maybe even sooner, I wanted to have a successful YouTube channel. I never knew quite how to make that happen, as I am pretty camera shy and honestly didn't know how to make quality content. This is still an aspiration of mine but a YouTube channel these days comes with a whole mass of other things. If you want to be successful, you have to have a SOCIAL MEDIA presence. Instagram is one of the main ones I feel you HAVE to be on to gain a following. Then there's newer apps like TikTok. Did I mention all of the changes social media has gone through over the past few years? Stories. Reels. Live videos. etc. It's truly overwhelming! In this culture you're almost expected to chronicle your entire life online. 

I do NOT want to do that. BUT, I want to have a YouTube channel and have it be successful, and I just feel that all of that is necessary to make it happen. But it shouldn't be that way. I don't know how to dial it back without always thinking that I need to be doing MORE. 

Maybe we all need to learn how to do less.