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....Ezra 10:4....
Wow. It has been quite the New York minute since I've posted anything. I am sad for that, but if only you guys knew what has been going on these past several months..... I'm not trying to avoid talking about all that's happened, by no means, but there is just so MUCH that I haven't written about. I'm sure you will see bits and pieces of it in the upcoming posts, but at this point I'm not planning on going back and re-living and recording all of those moments. I will say, however, that I am back in New York. Actually, I am back in my parents' house. Tennessee did not work out, not that I thought it definitely would. I just had to DO something. I am so glad that I have become the type of person who is willing to take risks and do something that most people would call crazy, or be too scared to try! It is a little sad when I am asked to explain why I am back in NY. The Sunday before I left for TN, I was asked to speak in front of my entire church and explain that I was leaving, and what was "next" for me. Less than two months later, I was right back where I started. Actually, further back from where I started. However, life is unpredictable, and I didn't go to TN to pursue anything specific anyway. MOVING ON, to my life now in NY. I started a new job on January 2nd, 2018. Wow. I can't believe time goes by so quickly! I now work in a chocolate factory (get all those jokes out of your mind now), and I actually really like the work. I work a night shift, which has created quite a difficult lifestyle for me, but it is what it is. The people are very different from what I'm used to, in that I have sheltered myself verrryyyy well up until this point in my life. But I have a few people looking out for me, and I am doing pretty well there being "buds" will all these different people. It's actually quite amazing. This leads me to the cool part, and honestly why I think I ended up right back in NY in the first place. Soooo many of my coworkers have been broken. There are people there that tell my constantly that they're losing hope, they are stuck in addiction, they want to cease to exist, etc. Lots of them do not believe that there's a purpose for their life. Many feel like they have no control, because of the types of situations they are in. No one likes feeling like they have no say over their lives. BUT, the cool part is, I get to share Jesus with these people every night. I've had multiple people ask me if I'm a Christian, when they had no reason to ask. Guys, when you have Jesus, PEOPLE SEE IT. It is truly beautiful and incredible. A lot of people view Christians in a very negative light. The most common issue that people have with us is that they see us as judgmental or stuck up. I try really hard to listen sincerely and understand where people are coming from- but sometimes, people still have it in the back of their minds that, since I am a Christian, I am judging them. Where does that mindset come from? Christians, we have to do something about this. I want people to know Jesus because they know me. I want to be so filled by my Savior that when people see me, they absolutely see Jesus, and WANT Him. It's not about me. I can only pour out what I am filling myself with- so I completely recognize that I need to be spending more time with Him and his words. I want to know Him and love Him even more, because I am nothing without Him. SO, THAT IS MY CURRENT LIFE SITUATION It's not glamorous, it's definitely not where I thought I would be at this point in my life, but it's my new reality. God literally brought me back to NY for this. When I left, I knew it wasn't led by God. He gave me an incredible opportunity, that literally seemed like a miracle, but He also gave me the choice of going my own way, or going His way. I hope that next time I try to do something crazy and incredible, I stop to ask my best friend and supporter what He thinks I should do. Because His opinion is the only one that matters anyway. Why do you think you are in the current life situation you are in? Do you know your purpose? Tweet me @lifeasemilyhope
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